Tilbage til norske anmeldelser 

Picture stories

to the exhibition

in Louisiana



Note: Only a few are translated into English. There are more stories in the Danish version.


Couples


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People often ask me how I get to take such an intimate picture? Here’s my recipe: ever since my first year on the road, I had frequently been staying with Dorothy Y., a big, fat mama in the Philadelphia ghetto. Her 14-year-old daughter Renee was fascinated by my vagabond stories and always pestering me to take her with me on the road. When she turned 16, I finally gave her permission, if she got her mother’s written permission. I knew how the police would react to a white hitchhiker with a black girl, but apart from endless sexual assaults by white truck drivers the trip went fine.
Traveling through the South for a month, we built up a deep intimacy with each other, sharing beds or floor space every night. When I brought her back, as I’d promised her mother, Renee was so happy to see her boyfriend again that they jumped straight into bed. And because of the intimacy we now had, she never gave a second thought to my photographic presence during the entire act. So this is how you take pictures like this: just invite the subject hitchhiking with you for a month until she is ready.

 

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Single, heavily pregnant women often invited me to share their bed and table – perhaps because they were especially vulnerable and needed some protection against aggressive black men, ….or like Eveleen Hall in the picture, in the hope that I could be their redeemer. In 1974, I still hadn’t abandoned my idea of doing a photographic document of black life from birth to death, and when Eveleen kept begging me to move in with her, I saw a chance to finally get a picture of a birth. She was living in the most crime-ridden, poverty-ridden project I had ever seen, and I was so scared to leave the house that I practically behaved like the perfect husband. But the delivery dragged out, and like so many black men in the ghetto, I split when push came to shove. One night, the flames from the race riots out in Newark went up so high that I could see them from our gated windows. All too often, I had hitchhiked thousands of miles to get to a ghetto uprising and arriving too late every time. This was one race riot I did not want to miss. I was really risking my life with bullets flying around me in the flames. But because of a technical mishap not a single photo came out. When I got back to Eveleen, she had just given birth. So in one night, I missed both birth and death. I had a steadfast vagabond principle not to let someone down I had built up a relationship with, for as long as we were living together. Here, I broke one of my strongest principles – and immediately received my devastating punishment.

This picture was taken the next day in the slanting bed I now had to share with two people. The legs were missing at one end and I was close to falling out all night long. Shortly after, in fact, I cut out from this oppressive scene of misery of single welfare mothers. I was no more of a redeemer than any other jobless young man in the ghetto.
 

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This picture shows Howard Honore with Trutroia, his step-granddaughter with Virginia. Already when she was 16, Virginia had invited me to stay in her cardboard shack way out in the Louisiana swamps. Howard died of a heart attack in 2007 at the exact same spot where I took this picture. But Trutroia and the other grandchildren still run around wearing T-shirts with his picture. Many of you may recognize him: he was a guard at the infamous Angola prison and appeared in the movie Dead Man Walking as the guard who led Sean Penn to the execution chamber. This was an awful déjà vu from Howard’s own personal life and in it I see his deeper love. In addition to the 12 children and grandchildren of their own, he and Virginia adopted a 16-year-old who was getting into crime. One day the boy committed a brutal murder and it fell to Howard to lead his own son to his execution in the prison. He could have opted out, of course, but he felt he couldn’t let his own son down on his final difficult steps as a "dead man walking." Indeed, that man was love personified.


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My friend Wally was happily married in New York, but one day he watched as his wife and their four-year-old daughter were killed by stray bullets from a shootout between black street gangs. In pain and desperation, he became active in the Nazi Party. One day he was watching Jerry Springer on TV when the Klan leader Jeff appeared on the show with his daughter Tania, and he fell in love with her. At their next Klan meeting, he drove all the way down to North Carolina and proposed to her. So, my Klan group now had a Nazi as a member, and they didn’t care for it. "Nazis are full of hate," they said. In fact, Wally was the only hateful person I met in the whole Klan, but, as always with hate, I knew it was really about pain. Even though he would rattle off anti-Semitic slurs and, unlike the other Klan people, sometimes abusive to black people in his language, I came to care for him by focusing on all the love he had behind those empty slurs. Not just love for obese Tania but especially for their small daughter who he adored and played with from morning to night. For fear of losing her as well, he refused to get a job. Jeff the Klan leader despised his Nazi son-in-law. But when Jeff finally dissolved the Klan
and was wounded in an attempt on his life by some of the other Klan people, Wally sat at his sickbed for two months. All the time Jeff was in a coma, Wally very gently and lovingly tried to coax him back to consciousness, chatting and making jokes. Jeff finally did come out of the coma and today they are all one big loving, church-going regular family without their former need to dress up in clown suits of hate to compensate for their pain. This picture of Tania and Wally from the hateful years contains more love than any other picture I have taken.



Guns

 

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While I was seeing Liddy Mathon, her sister Debbie – who was married to a white man, John P. – out of curiosity invited me to spend the night at their place. Liddy and Debbie were Haitian immigrants and thus felt miles above native-born blacks. Like whites, they had a deeply racist view of them. As black immigrants, they had not been forced to internalize the white negative view of them for centuries, and so their sense of self-worth had not been crushed in childhood. Consequently, they do just as well in school and work as whites, even though they come from one of the poorest countries on earth. Like all winners, they have a hard time understanding losers and the crime many ghettoized people get into.

John and his hardworking wife lived in one of those well-kept, expensive brownstone townhouses in Brooklyn that black immigrants favor. On the other hand, almost half of native-born blacks are on welfare, living in projects or in jail, and their neighborhoods are characterized by the trash of despair all over the place. For the same reason, I often heard these "black Jews," as native-born blacks call the immigrants, refer to native-born blacks in the ghetto as "lazy niggers." And I saw how they armed themselves against them out of fear, like John and his wife in this picture. For 30 years in my workshops, I have tried to build up a sense of solidarity between these two groups of blacks, but it’s hard, considering that black immigrants constitute up to 85 percent of all black students in many elite colleges, though they make up just 5 percent of the entire black American population.


 

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In Alabama, this poor 87-year-old woman asked me to drive her to Phoenix, Arizona. She wanted to go there to die. I helped her board up the windows of her tumbledown shack just outside Notasulga – the same town where the government once performed a deadly syphilis experiment on blacks. She knew she would never return, but still she tried to prevent local blacks from moving in. Even as we drove more than 2000 miles in five days, she sat there the whole time with her pistol in her hand – terrified of my long hair and beard. She was so frail that I had to carry her whenever we left the car, and even then she clung to her gun.

She reminded me of an old lady I picked up many years later in Atlanta on one of my lecture tours. "Why are you hitchhiking?" I asked her. "Because they shut off the gas to my stove," she said. She had tried to kill herself, but then they shut off her gas. Now she was hitchhiking 400 miles to Greensboro, where she knew her sister had a working gas stove. I always help my hitchhikers out, and so I chose to drive this almost 80-year-old woman straight to the oven.

 

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Sharon Lee was my first American girlfriend, but our relationship ended in terrorism. When we first met, at a New Year’s party in 1971 near St. Louis, she was an uneducated, apolitical dental assistant, while I was a fanatical antiwar activist and indoctrinated her from morning to night. She knew nothing about Vietnam or politics, though several of her friends had been killed in Vietnam and opposition to the war was growing. She was more interested in me and offered to clean my teeth for free one Sunday when the dentist wasn’t in. She seduced me right there in the dentist’s chair and practically raped me – well, that’s how our relationship began. Under my political influence, she quickly grew into my – and the antiwar movement’s – "My Fair Lady". Already in 1972 she was going all over the country as a speaker for Vietnam Veterans Against the War. She was the one who first introduced me to the future presidential candidate John Kerry, who was also a spokesman for veterans. But, while Kerry chose to work within the democratic system, Sharon, like so many others at the time, took the revolutionary road in violent struggle against the government responsible for the death of three million Vietnamese. When I met Sharon Lee again in 1974, she had gone underground and, along with the other Weathermen, had amassed a huge stockpile of bombs and guns in the woods of Missouri, which they took me to in secret. I was only allowed to photograph her in front of their idol, the Indian chief Geronimo, who also once had waged war against the government. Now I thought that she had become a bit fanatical, since in the meantime I had become a believer in nonviolence. Curiously, it was my participation in Wounded Knee, the last Indian uprising against the government, which converted me. Still, a ticking sex bomb in the middle of a bomb stash was almost as hard to resist as one in a dentist’s chair. Anyway, as a peace activist, I felt compelled to try and disarm it – old love never dies. :-) Today, Sharon is back on the road of peace and is doing a big job helping marginalized children in the Indian reservation where she lives.

 

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I was staying with Maryann W. in New Orleans and we went out one night – it was Sunday, December 9, 1973 – to play pool at the Seven Seas. I played a game with a black friend of mine, Butch, and when it was my turn he stepped outside for a minute. When he didn’t come back, I went outside to look for him and found this man dead. Butch had just murdered him while we were playing pool.

My friend Maryann recently wrote about it on Facebook: "If I hadn't stepped in at the right moment you would have been arrested for taking the photos. I can still see Butch's face in the back of the patrol car. I had talked to him a lot in the bar, he never gave me any trouble, and I remember his stating that he had never been out of jail at Christmas since he was about 10 years old. As your records will show, he lived up to this by attacking the man on the street. I remember when I looked at him sitting in the back of that patrol car he shrugged as if to say, "I told you so." Very sad. If I had been a psychologist at that time I would have taken him on as a client."

Later, Maryann worked with poor migrant workers, but that night we went home and made love. Sex and violence are closely interlinked.


 

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Raine, in the picture, was my first inside source about everything in the Ku Klux Klan. She was the mastermind behind Klan leader Virgil G., who killed the former girlfriend of my best black associate, Tony, in the 1979 Greensboro massacre. I tell more about her in the film playing in the Louisiana Cinema – how, at 17, she had already committed two murders and was then sent out to do missionary work in Africa by good Christian Klan people. It was there that she decided to help black people back in America, and she later got a degree in social work and worked with black gang members in prison.

One day, two Klansmen, David and Scot, whom I’d met and photographed, broke into her house and raped her, after which they tried to murder her with multiple shots. It took several blood transfusions before doctors were able to save her life. In the trial, it came out that she was an active member of the Klan and she was therefore fired from her job at the prison because the state is not allowed to employ KKK people. But then all the black prisoners protested. They didn’t want to lose their favorite social worker. "But, didn’t they realize that Raine was a Klan member?" Sure, they all knew from the prison’s gang awareness training, a program to help ex-cons stay out of gangs. For in a prison context, the Ku Klux Kan is considered to be just a poor white gang, and the inmates had recognized Raine in a slideshow about the local white gang. And that made her even more popular among the black inmates – that she was a gang member like themselves. So the prison had to hire her back.

The last time I visited her, Raine had amassed this stockpile of guns because she was afraid of further attacks by violent members of her gang. She is one of the many examples I have seen in the Ku Klux Klan of "love disguised as hate."

 

Death


 

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This four-year-old child was killed by stray bullets from a gang shootout in Harlem. I have other pictures of the mother sobbing over her baby. What’s the effect on children when they see their brothers or sisters gunned down in the street? When I was teaching in a school in Harlem, I discovered that there wasn’t a single one of the children who had not witnessed such shootouts in the streets, where bullets hit even the most innocent of children. They refused to believe that I came from a country without common access to handguns. "Then how do people defend themselves?" they wanted to know.
Well, that was back in 1972. Many years later, the Danes chose to marginalize their new fellow citizens in a similar way and in short order created the exact same kind of street gang shootouts.


Martha


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After church services in Harlem recently, I decided to look up old friends in the neighborhood. Harlem has received a huge economic boost and several of my poor friends have been forced out because of rent hikes. A couple of me friends in the same building had moved out, so I was anxious when I knocked on Martha’s door and relieved to hear her scream of delight from inside the apartment, "Jaaaacoooob!"

I last stayed with her during my college tours in the 1980s when she was still hot as a hooker and I took this picture of her in the red dress in her kitchen.

  

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So it was a bit depressing to see her now, toothless and barely able to walk. Here she is in what’s supposed to be the living room, where I used to sleep when I went to weddings and parties in Harlem. Although she had got in late the night before, she now insisted on dressing up in her usual party gowns with gold chains around her neck, the way I knew her back in the day.

 

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It was oppressively hot, so I asked her out for a walk in the park. That’s how I realized that this old hooker could only get around now with the help of a walker. Even so, she said what she always used to say, "It’s a bad neighborhood, but I’ll protect you!" I thought that was funny, being "protected" in Harlem by an old lady with a walker, but the local gang members had deep respect for her. She would stop and chat with everybody, and I was amazed at all the new friends I made in no time.

 

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We bought some beer in her local grocery, which like so many other stores in Harlem today are owned by Arabs. They have taken over the old Jewish stores I remember from my youth. The beer helped loosen up her first customer later in the day – Ron, an old regular who is a semi-boyfriend.

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My small photo story ends with them in bed together in the messiest bedroom I have seen in years – so cluttered that only half the bed can be used for business as usual. The other half is taken up, among many other things, by her cell phones, her lifeline to the outside world, and she spends most of her time in bed trying to find them when they ring, which happens less and less frequently. It’s wonderful to see old friends, but not always so uplifting.

 

Work

 

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I was hitchhiking to Greensboro, North Carolina, when I ended up staying with Mack, a black social worker. He asked me to give a talk to the black inmates who were bussed in for therapy at the Drug Action Council every day. I talked to them for two days, and after asking me a lot of questions the first day in the end they became totally silent out of embarrassment. This was in those days when blacks hated whites, and they had never met a white person whom they felt knew more about their situation than they did. As one of the assistants told Mack, "It was as if Jesus walked through my house and told me everything about what was wrong with it." That made Mack burst out in laughter, because just the night before I had told him about the white Jesus image many Southern blacks had and frequently projected onto me.

Gee, in the picture, was so impressed, too, that in everyone’s presence she asked me to come and stay with her, which was unusual for a black woman at the time, when such behavior was considered betraying your race. But Gee, a former prostitute-addict in the North, was used to white men, even if she had only known them as business – a penniless vagabond was a new experience for her. Every day I’d go with her to work at the clinic. After serving a prison term, she had got an office job there as part of her rehabilitation. The last time I visited her two years ago, she was working in a hospital.
 

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In Georgia, I stayed with the Barnett family in one of the old Gone with the Wind plantation homes. There, I learned about a different form of racism, one not based on hate but on a historically determined paternal love of black people. Mrs. Barnett spent days taking me around to visit families whom her family had once owned – in her mind set apparently few years ago and, as I later found out, the same held true for in black consciousness. Just as in the plantation homes of Mississippi, I enjoyed being served from morning to night by black servants, some of whom are still my friends today, - now when Mrs. Barnett and her era are dead.

 

Upper class 

 

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In Natchez, Mississippi, I stayed for months with Emely, the owner of an old Gone with the Wind-style plantation home. Every morning, we were served breakfast on silver platters in her canopied bed by her black maid Earline. I just visited Earline again this year. It was she who found Emely dead in the bathtub in a pool of blood right after she Emely shot herself.
Emely’s 16-year-old daughter Jane, seen here in the reading room, had a boyfriend at the time whom her mother didn’t approve of. So Emely asked me to hang out with her daughter to make her change her mind. For days, I’d drive around with Jane in her
gas guzzler, sipping Cokes and acting like an American teenager – though with the unfortunate result that Jane fell in love with me instead. That made her mother so jealous that she kicked out Jane, who then moved into her grandmother’s even bigger plantation home.
I couldn’t know at the time that Jane’s interest in old books would one day lead her to build up one of the biggest stores for rare old books in New York, where we continue our friendship today.

 

Prisons 

 

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The story about the prison leader Popeye Jackson was told in American Pictures, but let me here tell you the story of how I got into prison and took these photographs just a few days before my friend Popeye, in the picture, was assassinated. I had been active in the same city, San Francisco, four years before in the world’s first successful gay-rights movement – the same movement that brought Harvey Milk to power seven years later. As a gay activist, I became good friends with the sheriff of San Francisco, Hongisto, who as a gay was still not out of the closet. I could therefore talk him into jailing me illegally so I could photograph our mutual friends – all the transvestites whom I lived with at the time and who frequently ended up in jail. Funny also that Hongisto himself was later locked up in that same prison when he refused to allow police to evict gays from their apartments, as the law said they should be if they were guilty of "sodomy," as it was still called.
I promised Hongisto never to reveal this offence, but now he’s dead.

When a friend of Popeye’s and mine, Sara Jane Moore, tried to kill our president at the time, President Ford, to avenge the FBI murder of Popeye, it was actually one of my neighbors, Billy – a gay man who was the boyfriend of Harvey Milk’s lover Joe – who knocked the pistol out of Sara’s hand and saved the president’s life. As an instant hero, Billy was invited to the White House, but when Milk convinced him to announce that he was gay, to help strengthen the gay rights movement, the president suddenly refused to meet his own savior.

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Highways

 

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This year, when I was taking pictures under these highway overpasses in the world’s biggest village, Baton Rouge, I discovered that many of the same people that I’d photographed in their shacks 35 years earlier were still living there. But now they didn’t want to be photographed as victims. "We live here of our own free will."
This change in attitude after Obama’s election victory is interesting because almost all the poor people I photographed in the ’70s more or less consciously saw themselves as collectively oppressive by white people, and therefore were not ashamed of their poverty. Today, they remind me of the poor whites in the ’70s who wouldn’t let me photograph them because they blamed themselves for their misery. But the question is, do poor blacks on welfare really choose to live under such noisy highways for 35 years out of their own free will?


 

Food 

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On one of my trips among migrant workers in Florida, I found this dying man completely abandoned in his small shack at the Okeechobee Lake. He showed me a gaping hole in his chest through which I could look directly into his stomach. He had prepared a meal for himself and was sitting in the bed trying to eat it, but he couldn’t get anything down. It was his last meal. Two days later he was dead. I think about him every time I’m in Disneyworld, right nearby, where morbidly obese Americans meet and miserably waddle around, looking for such holes to stuff more fat into.

 

Police 

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In 1972, I was hitchhiking around Guatemala with a vague idea of joining the guerillas, since Nixon had bloodily overthrown the first democratically elected government in Guatemala’s history. It was those years when the U.S. was still acting as a terrorist.
I never found the guerillas in the mountains, but I read about the upcoming protests at Nixon’s convention. In just six days, I hitchhiked from the Guatemalan jungle to Miami, where I put on a shorthair wig and managed to move into Nixon’s headquarters, the Fontainebleau Hotel, next to Reagan, John Wayne and other top Republicans. During the huge protests against Nixon’s genocide in Vietnam, I was arrested four times by the Secret Service and eventually I was kicked out of the hotel. Today I find it interesting how I internalized my Republican surroundings, for from my windows high up I watched the longhaired protesters in the streets with almost Republican disgust. Right after taking this picture of a protester, I was arrested for the third time. Watching from behind a bush, a Secret Service agent had seen me change from my longhaired protester outfit to my Republican wig and go into the hotel where a female Republican delegate had been letting me stay in her room.

 

Mary

 

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Mary 1:
This is the story of Mary, whose house was firebombed by a white hate group and whose brother was killed in the fire – all because her relationship with me.

I have always been against intimate relationships with our outcasts in the underclass – it will always be a kind of exploitation. Thus I have consistently refrained from having relationships with poor women in the Third World. But Mary was an exception. I came to her shack, which had no indoor plumbing, to get a glass of water in the sweltering heat of summer and we ended up – in more than one sense – sharing water at the well of the Samarian woman. Mary and I romanticized our forbidden relationship there in those tough surroundings, but she didn’t trust people like I did: she kept three pistols and a shotgun under her bed. Those were some of the happiest days of my life and we have maintained our close relationship throughout our lives despite our differences of class and culture.

Once, when I was going away to a Ku Klux Klan rally in Kentucky, Mary gave me a silver cross to protect me on the trip. The same day I took this picture of her barring the door – as if she knew what was going to happen.

 

 

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Mary 2:
Mary in front of her firebombed house. The tragedy brought me face to face with my recurring dilemma: Can I, an outsider, have fully developed human relationships with people who are outcasts?

Those who seek to preserve a caste system will always condemn such relationships. Americans – out of pure and simple guilt about the tacit apartheid in their own hearts – tend to blame Mary’s misfortune and our Shakespearean tragedy on me. Likewise, we Europeans are always blaming Americans for their primitive resistance to intimate bonds between blacks and whites, while we forget our own disassociation from intimate interrelationships with the Muslims.

All over the world, the minds of both oppressor and the oppressed are full of blocks against mixed marriages and intimate relationships.


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Mary 3:
This is the only picture I got to take of Mary’s brother before he was killed in the fire. Mary has almost forgotten the whole thing: her life over the last 30 years has been no less tough. Soon after her brother’s death, her sister was murdered and shortly after that her grandmother. When Danish television came along for a visit, viewers were shocked at the escalating violence – Mary’s daughter-in-law was murdered not long before we arrived. Her son John was conceived in violence – Mary was raped at a young age by a white plantation owner. Her rapist later bought her silence with countless gifts, including a new, bigger shack out in the woods where I have loved staying with Mary ever since. Over the years, I have done what I could to help Mary get John out of jail.

 

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Mary 4:
Here Mary is seen after work in her new shack out in the woods somewhere in Alabama. I used to sit here on her porch and write my articles on the computer. The walls of the shack are still papered with posters from American Pictures. This was my regular hideout in the ’80s and ’90s, when I needed to get away from my lectures in colleges or the crack-gang wars in the urban ghettos. One night, I saw two Puerto Ricans get shot right in front of me on my street in New York, and suddenly I began to tremble so badly when I tried to photograph down into the dying men’s eyes that in just 20 hours, deeply shaken, I drove the 1000 miles south to hide out with Mary. In between my college lectures, I helped with her harvest work. This still involved the white plantation owner picking us up at five in the morning and driving us out to the cotton fields – later it was bean fields – where we would slave away in a 100 degrees Fahrenheit.

 

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Mary 5:

This picture is from this year, 2009, when Mary called me over because she is now seriously ill. She has had surgery for cancer and has a blocked artery to the brain, so she had all sorts of tubes running out of her. It is strange and painful to help one’s old flame wrangle all those tubes and oxygen tanks and walk around town with her on a street walker, …..and yet there is something beautiful about following someone so closely throughout life, from when we were young and wild – and together had the courage to break down local taboos and create American Pictures.
 

 
Ku Klux Klan


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On my first lecture tour in 1978, I picked up a lost hitchhiker who seemed completely withdrawn, and something about his voice made me suspect incest. For a long time, I very lovingly kept asking him about his childhood. And sure enough, from the depths of his soul slowly emerged a horrendous story of a stepfather raping him, which he had effectively kept a lid over. I was as surprised about the memories that emerged as I was that he would now share them with anyone. In a short time, this tangled-up knot of a young man was transformed into a big bundle of gratitude and would do anything for me. When I showed him a copy of my book (about the black underclass), he suddenly asked me if I would like to go with him to the Ku Klux Klan rally he was going to. I had never in all my years as a vagabond been able to get in touch with the Klan. Now, one of its members was suddenly opening up to me and offering to help me take candid pictures of the secret cross burning, essentially betraying his friends. I knew that I would be able to trust him from now on, because I have always met deep gratitude from such victims of abuse after helping them. He was the first Klansman who opened up to me about the sad cause and effect behind the scary facade of the Klan. Years later, when I started seriously working with the Klan’s racism, that pattern was confirmed – just as it can be discerned in almost every one of these poor Klan sympathizers. 

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After an open Klan recruitment rally during the day, I bought my dirt-poor hitchhiker dinner. I also offered to call his mother on my credit card to let her know he had arrived safely. But then his mother started crying on the phone and telling him that his uncle had just been murdered by two black men. I watched his face instantly change to hate. I was in two minds now about whether I dared to go with him deep into the dark woods of Alabama and burn a cross with a crowd of unpredictable robed men in what I knew would degenerate into mass hysteria. Now, of course, he knew everything about my commitment to blacks. I have never been more frightened in my life. Now I was the one who needed to call around to my friends in America and my family in Denmark. If they didn’t hear from me by midnight, I wanted them to alert the police. This was one of the few times in my life I showed some courage. You’re not really brave when – as is usually my experience – you trust in the good in people. But that day I had my doubts and had to conquer my fear. Fear, after all, builds on the negative in people, which invariably brings out evil. Today, I’m happy that I chose to trust this child of pain. To people who feel so bad that they can only build up some semblance of self-worth by seeing fear in others, trust is a message of love. He helped me hide my film rolls from the Klanspeople carrying automatic weapons and never left my side. He was the first Klansman who showed me all the goodness and love that lies hidden behind the empty, hateful symbols.

 

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In 2002, when the leader of the biggest and most dangerous chapter of the Klan in America went to prison, I moved in with his wife, Pam, who was now the acting Klan leader. She and the other Klanspeople grew so fond of me that she invited some of the so-called Grand Dragons from other states to Sunday dinners to meet me. Here, following the initial saying of grace, I’m having dinner with the Grand Dragon of Illinois and her personal bodyguard, who also happens to be her husband.
Some might object that the Klan members do not normally eat dressed like that, but yes, they do, when – and because – you are there looking at them. The Klan, of course, is enormously media conscious and they know that, without their clown suits, they wouldn’t be the Ku Klux Klan but just ordinary people like everyone else. So they love to dress up to accommodate our need to find enemy images and believe in evil. I realized a long time ago that they are not the ones who hate; they merely reveal our need to hate and condemn. As the Klan leader told me, "I could arrive in a limousine and a fifteen-hundred dollar suit and no one would pay any attention to me. But the moment I pull on these magic robes, a thousand protesters suddenly appear in front of me screaming. I simply can’t live without the rush of adrenalin and the recognition that gives me."

So, in this image I wanted only to exhibit our own hate.

 

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The child in this picture is wrapped in love, not hate. But that is not how the viewer most likely will see it. All over the world, the Confederate flag has become a symbol of so-called hate groups. But symbols are empty and meaningless to children – also when Katja’s Nazi father teaches her how to heil. What matters to a child is whether he or she is the object of her parents’ loving compassion and not of privation, disparagement or outright abuse. I have yet to hear a Klan member talk about his or her loving parents or happy childhood. So Katja will not grow up to be hateful.

How do I know? Although I saw her heil all her childhood amid all the ordinary storybooks and Lego toys I got her for her birthday, she is a normal loving person today. So are her parents, after they got some help to get out of the Ku Klux Klan and the Nazi Party.

Still, most of us try to keep them fixed in such hate groups by cultivating them as evil and directly teaching our own children hate – rather than understand – for example, when they have to write papers about the KKK in school.

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This is a picture of a nice old grandmother. And that’s part of the truth. It’s also a picture of 56-year old Jean, who regularly puts on the Klan robe as seen in the picture of her at the dining table. I had not seen Jean for a year and was a bit nervous because I had been writing critically about her on my website, which the Klan follows. This was before I became the Klan’s own official webmaster. But the moment Jean saw me driving up in the winter snow outside her poor house; she jumped out and hugged me, calling out enthusiastically, "Jacob, I am so happy to see you. I’m a free woman now. I’m free. My husband Null (the man in the black robes at the dining room table) just died." And then she dragged me straight into the bedroom to show me. :-)

There, she flopped her saggy breasts out of her blouse and pulled down her paints to show me her tattoos, including some on the most intimate parts of her body. Her entire life, her husband had been against her getting tattooed, because he was beaten as a child by a drunken stepfather with tattoos. But what is a Klan woman without tattoos? In their constant struggle to try get our love, these children of pain get it in inverse form instead, in the form of our negative attention or outright hate and condemnation – first in their youth as tattooed bikers, later much more effectively by putting on these clown suits.

Jean’s three kids all disassociate themselves from their mother’s pathetic Klan activities, but she can’t disassociate herself from them. They are all in prison for dealing drugs and she is committed to raising her grandchildren. But mentally she now feels like a free woman.

 

Shacks  

 
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I came to live with Nell Hall in Jersey City in 1974, when I moved in with her pregnant daughter, Eveleen. As a poster this picture became extremely popular among American feminists as the symbol of the worn-out welfare mother. I don’t remember if the baby was actually Eveleen’s. Nor did it matter in the bleak setting of poverty ridden projects, where the only pastime – apart from crime – is round-the-clock TV. It was really hard for me to pass the time there, so I had plenty left over to wait for the right facial expression which conveyed the hopelessness - before the heartening entrance of the stranger in their lives.

Nell Hall was soon evicted because she couldn’t pay her rent of 59 dollars a month. They became homeless and I lost touch with them. But I think about her and her daughter all the time when I drive past these now-condemned poorhouses on Highway 9, where kids from our slum apartments used to unload the backs of trucks with lightning speed when traffic backed up during rush hour. For the place is right next to where I warehouse my equipment and the posters with Nell. In the room next to mine the Arab terrorists made the bomb which blew up the WTC the first time……and according to the FBI they were close to also blow up all Nell Halls left over papers.

 

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Driving Robert Moore, the Grand Dragon of North Carolina, home from the Ku Klux Klan headquarters in Indiana, I met Nancy, the first of his four ex-wives. He’s back living with her again now – or rather, he sleeps on this couch. "While your wife is fucking a Mexican in the next room," I tease him, when he starts spouting his Klan catchphrases such as "I stand up for my race!" and so on. Today’s Klanspeople are more upset about Mexican immigrants than blacks. "Yeah, but that wetback was a good stepfather to my son all the years I was off with the Klan," he shoots back, grinning.

Robert met Nancy when he got out of jail at age 19. He couldn’t move back home, since he had spent five years in prison for trying to kill his abusive stepfather with a razor blade after a lifetime of beatings. On another occasion, his sister tried to cut their stepfather’s throat with a kitchen knife. His brother has been in and out of jail his whole life for arson. That’s just another way of burning your crosses – the same psychological pattern which characterizes every Klan member after an abusive childhood.

When he got out of prison, Nancy and Robert only had black friends, she says about their drug-marriage. But then he straightened himself out by joining the Ku Klux Klan and suddenly he only wanted white friends. And because of all that nonsense we went our separate ways, Nancy says. Every single boyfriend she has had since then has been black or Mexican. Now, after his heart surgery, Robert can’t work anymore and, poor as dirt, he’s back living with Nancy, who’s proud of having slimmed down from the 400 pounds she used to weigh back when she couldn’t even sit in the red couch. Their son Jason is just out of prison and runs around bragging about how he wants to be a great Klan leader like his now-returned dad. So now he’s losing all his friends since he’s the only white kid in an all-black school. Yes, sometimes it’s to find out which side you belong to.

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When I was doing my lecture tours in the 1990s, I would often share this bed with Wilma in her one-room shack without light or water. Teaching at elite colleges for privileged kids you easily forget what it was that made the lectures so successful in the first place – the roots you continually need to be nurtured from to keep up your inspiration and indignation. And no one has been better to return to than the intellectual Wilma, who always would challenge my thinking on racism every night by the fire. At Wilma’s, same as when I’m staying in shantytowns in Africa and Haiti, I get to reexperience the particular feeling of lying packed together on damp sheets between black, greasy bodies reeking of smoke that I remember from the shacks of my vagabond years. Back then I thought that was a special smell blacks had. Later, when many of them got indoor plumbing, air-conditioning and heating, I realized that the smell was environmentally defined, and that it was really the odors of oppression I had been breathing in. So how would I be able to give lectures on oppression without still smelling its odors?


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After I married my first wife, Annie Rush, I hitchhiked from San Francisco to meet my parents-in-law in Philadelphia, Mississippi. Annie was afraid to return, because people there still remembered her as the first black person to use the former all-white library. Living with Reverend Rush, I made friends with everyone on his street – that is, the dirt road here on "the wrong side of the tracks," as the ghetto is called in America, with its long row of shotgun shacks.

In one of them lived Carl O., seen here, with his brother Benny and their father, who was in a wheelchair. Benny has ever since he grew up been in prison, but Carl has done okay, although every time I returned over the years I immediately recognized him his new shacks, because he was always sitting in the same defeatist position. Perhaps he was ruminating on the painful life all around him. In 2007, when I asked him if he wouldn’t like to go with me to my now deceased father-in-law’s old church, he said, "No way, now I have my own church." And so, assuming a similar dangling position, I had to sit through a three-hour sermon he gave, dragging me through fire and brimstone like the best of the black preachers. Who would have thought that eight-year-old child had such power in him?

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I made friends with Lep, a gangster, who in 1973, having served jail time in New York, asked me home to visit his parents in the woods of North Carolina. We became life-long friends. Yet, it wasn’t until 30 years later that I find out the truth about Lep’s dad, Lefus W. When I was there, he was always sitting or lying around, drunk and beat, like in this picture. So I used to photograph him like this to illustrate the deeper apathy I saw in many poor blacks. This truth about the underclass may have been close to the truth, but Lefus is also a good example of how pictures can lie, even to the photographer. Contrary to the image of the "lazy drunk nigger" with his family in disarray, which is what most American read from this picture, everyone without exception made it clear to me that Lefus had never missed a day of work in his life. As a tenant farmer, he first started drinking on weekends, but he lost his land when white farmers pushed out the black farmers. He then became a construction worker, and his crew picked him up every morning at five and took him to Raleigh where he worked on every skyscraper seen in the state capital today. He only began drinking after work – that is, when I visited in the evening. My superficiality came from never having lived with the family. Every time I visited them since, they were living in a new tumbledown shack, but they were always the tightest of families and still get together every Sunday. Undeniably, Lefus built America. I see that now. So how could I lie to myself and everyone else for 30 years with this picture?


John  
 

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John 1:
For me, the story of John and his family of mass murderers began on September 18, 1991. Driving home from my show at the University of Houston late at night, I picked up a blood-spattered white female hitchhiker, bandaged her and drove her to her home. She had just been assaulted by blacks. The opposite thing happened to me a little later that night out in the darkness on Highway 10 when I spotted this guy Woody, who had been waiting for a ride for three days, having been fired without pay from a shrimp boat down in the Gulf. He’s the type no one would pick up. During our long drive that night, he told me that he and his two brothers had killed so many black people that they couldn’t count them on their fingers and toes, as he put it. I didn’t know if this was just talk, so five years later I returned to investigate, and the truth turned out to be far worse. Not only the three brothers – who had all had a childhood of horrible abuse – had been killing blacks, so had their violent father and grandfather, while they also butchered each other. When I interviewed his mother, she told me that her husband cut out her uterus one time he was drunk and that she then she killed him with an ax. This picture was taken two nights before Woody broke into a house and with a big knife cut open the stomachs of the people sleeping inside. Since then, I have been a mediator and messenger between the survivors and Woody in prison.


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John 2:
In 1996, when I returned with a Norwegian writer
in my car, I located Woody’s brother John, and the bloody truth was confirmed. She eventually wrote a whole book about it. When they were sober, John and his wife, Tina, brought up their children according to the higher American ideals about everyone being equal. As they phrased the concept of equality, "Niggers bleed red just like us." But at night, during their eternal drinking, we constantly heard them talk about killing niggers and dumping their bodies in rivers and swamps – they even caught one of the bodies in a shrimp net once – and as a result their abused children in turn took in a different message with their mother’s milk. Samantha, seen here being shown how to handle a gun, was thrown out of school at age seven with three of her friends for busting open a black boy’s head with a rock. With the double message she had received she wanted to find out if it was really true that blacks bleed red. In 2003, when I returned with Rikke Marrott, a black Danish woman, Samantha had already spent two years in jail for another crime. Even so, Samantha bonded strongly with the loving woman, Rikke. So although she committed her first hate crime at age seven, her deeper pain had nothing to do with black people.

 

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John 3:
Samantha’s younger sister, Gene, was just two years old in 1996, but, like her sister, she had already been violently abused. I really cared a lot for their mother, Tina, but night after night I saw her get drunk and hit Gene, who like other abused children was already an expert at asking for it – that’s the vicious cycle of oppression. People often berate me for taking pictures of abuse rather than stepping in. But it does no good for an intruding stranger to reproach people who feel bad about themselves and tell them they are being awful. They know that already. They have already been ghettoized by their surroundings and have no friends. On the contrary, what you should do is let such traumatized people know – including people who like these are quite literally stuck in a swamp – by your loving presence that they are God’s own children, so they can feel better about themselves. People who feel good about themselves do not hurt each other – or their children.


 

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John 4:
When I returned in 2003, Tina, the mother, had been killed – again while they were drunk - and her children had been placed in a good Christian home. Gene was now nine. They say children don’t remember anything from before age two, but when she saw me in my car, she came running out and jumped up into my arms like I was a good friend of the family. In fact, I was the only one who had ever visited her when she was a child and showed a little positive interest in her family. Here, Gene shows me what she wrote to her mother after she died.


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John 5:
This year, 2009, I returned again. When I arrived at John’s new house, there was blood everywhere on the lawn and he was busy shoeing a horse. He and a friend told me he had been out-of-his-mind drunk the night before and with his gun had started using his only cow for target practice. The cow got so spooked it jumped out of the enclosure and ran through town. He had then grabbed his rifle and jumped on his horse, making a mad ride through town. He was miles on the other side of town before he was able to shoot the cow, which he got his stepson to pick up in their truck and cut up the next morning. "So you see, Jacob, that’s why my lawn looks like a bloodbath and that’s how my horse got hurt."
I had just picked up a nice Danish woman at the airport and brought her along. I only told her just before we got to John’s that we were visiting a mass murderer – for this was the first family she was going to visit on her American trip. She didn’t know if I was kidding or not until she saw the bloody lawn. It didn’t help any when John asked her to go crayfishing and crocodile hunting with him in the same swamps where they said they had been dumping the bodies of their black victims over the years. Several of my previous co-travelers had declined similar invitations from John, but I immediately said yes.
 

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John 6:
It has not been good for the children to be returned to John from foster care. Here he is with one of his two grandchildren, which Samantha had before the age of 20 after getting out of prison at 17. She later ran away, leaving the children with John. John’s brother Woody, from the first picture, was finally paroled after years in jail and, now homeless, moved in with John. Here he raped Gene, who was 13 now, and thus John had his own brother put in prison for life. His other brother is also serving a life sentence for one of their murders of blacks. When she was 13, Gene stole a car to drive some of her friends to a McDonald’s in a nearby town and was sent to juvenile jail. She escaped when she was 14, stealing and completely smashing a school bus. She is now at a youth detention center so far away that John can’t afford to visit her.

So the circle of oppression keeps turning for this deeply traumatized family that I have now been following through four generations and will likely follow for the rest of my life – like I do with all my other exciting American friends.

 

Landscapes  

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These shotgun shacks were located in a stunning natural area on the east side of Meridian, Mississippi. The whole area consisted of almost jungle-like red clay hills with trees and shacks overgrown with the characteristic Mississippi ivy and Spanish moss. I had many friends there, including the dirt eaters whom I interviewed about why they ate the red dirt and why they sent it to their relatives up north, who call it Mississippi Mud.

That same day, the police suddenly arrested me in the middle of the interview, charging me with being a "communist infiltrator," who was stirring up the blacks. What I didn’t know was that the poor blacks were in the middle of a battle to save this natural area and their houses against speculators who wanted to flatten it all and build shopping malls. The speculators won, and where these shacks once stood the vast College Park mall now lies. Every year, the U.S. in similar ways clears a natural area equal to the state of Connecticut for suburban sprawl.

 

Religion

  

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These hands clasped in prayer are the hands of an executioner. They belong to my father-in-law, the Reverend Jake Rush. Now, after the death of my ex-wife, these hands have acquired a special meaning for me. I really hope the good preacher was praying for forgiveness for the way he abused my ex-wife, Annie. I personally got along fine with him when I was staying with him to investigate the truth about the nightmare of a childhood he gave Annie. Our marriage couldn’t survive the traumas it all gave her later in life. Annie’s mother, reverend Rush’s daughter, became pregnant by a college professor when she was 16. This was such a grave sin in this Baptist minister’s family that she and Annie’s twin sister were sent into exile up north, while Annie was raised by her grandparents in the strictest piety. In tears, Annie told me about the woodshed behind the house where she was constantly being tied up by these pious hands and lashed until she bled. Night after night, during our marriage, Annie would cry out the pain of her childhood, but it was only when her childhood friends described all the details and showed me the shed that I truly realized the evil he had done. Such a pattern of oppression easily becomes a cycle. Thus I had met Annie because her own mother was shot to death in Chicago only half a year after her stepfather was murdered.

 

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One of the experiences that affected the Danish poet Pia Tafdrup most deeply, when she went along on one of my trips through the slums of America, was the time she came into this shack. Twenty-four people were living there, crammed into two small bedrooms, a living room and a kitchen – all, without exception, were women and children. In the same ways I have sometimes given lectures in colleges for up to 80 black women, almost all reporting that they grew up without a father because he was in jail.

The picture shows Jean Ellison teaching her grandchild with one eye on the TV blaring by another bed holding just as many sleeping kids as the one we see here. With piles of clothes everywhere between the cardboard-papered walls, it was almost impossible to photograph in there. It has always been a mystery to me how Christians who live piled one on top of the other like this still manage to put on their Sunday best for church. When I came back the next year in 1990 the easily combustible shack, which stood in water outside, had burned to the ground in one of the stove fires that are so common. This picture was taken on the trip where Pia and I had to flee north with Hurricane Hugo in hot pursuit – the same year that the wall fell in Europe.

 

Narcotics  

 

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This picture of Diane injecting Aline with heroin was taken the night after Aline killed a taxi driver. The night before I had come hitchhiking into Jacksonville, Florida, where I met Diane, a black girl, who promised to find a place for me to stay. She and her friend Aline had me wait in a nightclub, while they looked into the options. A while later, they came back wildly agitated and said we were going to a motel. We were all sharing a bed and I watched as they were praying all night, in between their attempts to shoot up heroin, "Oh, please, God, don’t let him die." To get money for a motel room they had made a blown job on a white taxi driver in a dark alley, but then – it gradually dawned on me – they hit him over the head with a paving stone in order to get enough money for a shot of heroin, too. The next morning they overslept and were mainly sorry for being late for church where they sang in the choir.

The following night, they again went looking for a place for me to sleep, and after a long walk we ended up with their drug friend Don. Shortly after I took this picture, we all lay down to sleep on his mattress, and in the dark I listened to them having wild sex.

 

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In 1973, I was following the construction of the World Trade Center, which I photographed from many different angles. The towers were my beloved welcome sign, the first thing I saw every time I came hitchhiking up to New York from the South. The drug addicts, who were all over the rooftops those years shooting up, didn’t know what to make of the "two bags." To them, the old view of the "the big needle", as they called the Empire State Building, was a lot more exciting. This picture is of one of my friends in the building on Avenue B where I was staying in 1974. Back then, this avenue was known as the "DMZ," or the "demilitarized zone." It marked the border to the "free fire zone" of the wild east in alphabet city where I didn’t like to walk at night. Today, almost all poor people have been pushed out of Manhattan, and the area has been renewed and gentrified.

 

Americans 

 

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I took this picture of Reagan eight years before he became president, back when everyone was laughing off this B-movie actor’s presidential aspirations. I fooled him and the Secret Service by sneaking into the Republican headquarters wearing a shorthair wig and a pinstriped Republican getup. I still remember his demagogic speech and how he lied, claiming that the U.S. had the world’s best healthcare system. Because I had already seen so much disease and infant mortality in America, I had made a thorough study of U.N. health statistics. Not surprising that he as president brought the US into the biggest foreign debt ever with his demagogic tax releases while rolling back many of the big gains made for blacks during the civil rights years.

 

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On April 10, 1974, I got one of my most important rides as a vagabond. A black social worker, who picked me up and saw my pictures, asked me if I would like to meet America’s last surviving slave and took me to 134-year-old Charles Smith, seen here. His moving story, which I caught on tape just before his death, goes back to how he was caught in Africa, lured onto a slave ship and sold at auction in New Orleans to a white farmer.

 

 

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I call this picture "The Beauty and the Beast." During the Watergate hearings in 1974, we all felt that we were finally getting to stick it to President Nixon, the great hate object of young people and blacks in those years. This picture was taken the night of a speech Nixon gave shortly before resigning, when I was living with my girlfriend Baggie in Greensboro. I loved Baggie’s big afro and the whole "Black is Beautiful" movement the afros came to symbolize that was a showdown with centuries of black self-hate. Today, it’s harder for me to tell who the real beast is. Just one month later, Baggie was arrested for bank robbery and sentenced to 25 years in prison.

  

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When I was hitchhiking back to visit Mary once, I didn’t make it to her shack in the woods outside town before dark. I had to find a place to spend the night in Union Springs and somehow I became Nina’s boyfriend, too. It was a bit embarrassing in those narrow-minded towns – especially when the mayor once recognized them both in my book.
Nina had a lot of pain in her life and ended up a crack addict. Every time I visited her later on, she would always cry and tell me how she had just stabbed someone half to death. Once I asked her, "Where’s your husband?" and she told me, "He was hacked to death by an ax-wielding maniac." "But who’s the guy you’re living with now?" "That’s the ax-murderer," she said. "As you know, it’s so hard to find a man. They’re all in prison. You have to take what you can get."
Through 28 years I managed to keep my two old girlfriends ignorant of my relationship to the other until one day they both ended up in an adult rehab center, Nina as a crack addict and Mary with back pain from years as a cotton picker. One day one of them said in class that she had a Scandinavian lover to which the other replied: "I have one two." When they found out that it was the same, they right away made soul mates. With so many men in prison you have to share the few you can find, as they said J
Thus it was Mary, who a few years ago told me that Nina was murdered in the end, which didn’t surprise me considering all the pain I had seen in her all through her life.

 

Sunsets

 

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My story here is about little Linda in the red dress which moved Americans in American Pictures. Her family was so poor that they had never even had any light in their shack before I bought a little kerosene for their old lamp – so nine-year-old Linda no longer had to do her homework by moonlight. Linda’s life later on was no bed of roses either. Shortly after I took these pictures in 1974, her family broke up and when I returned in 1978, she was being raised by a strict foster mother. Every time I returned, she was completely wasted on drugs and more and more often in jail. The last time I spent time with her, in 2003, she was finally out of prison, but police were constantly cruising around the house in Tampa where she was staying with her two sons, both drug dealers. Shortly after I went back to Denmark, I got a letter from her asking me to send money for lawyers. She was back in jail – and this time so were both her sons.

Well, if anyone thinks I got rich off my American pictures, they have no idea what it costs to have so many friends in prison!

 

 

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